Showing posts with label Words. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Words. Show all posts

Wednesday, November 29, 2017

Maya


Maya!!


No.. She's not an illusion. None at all. 

But, the idea that you can own her, sure is. 


She is like a firefly. She'll light up into a flame and attract you. And you'd catch her, perhaps. But don't think she'll glow at your whim. She owns her spark and you can never grab it. 


Not between your lips, or fingers or palms.


You may wonder, why doesn't she talk; and sometimes she's full of stories. It is annoying, intriguing, senseless. All at the same time... 

She wants more and more of everything on certain days and on some days she is as benevolent as the grace of God - so giving!


She can let go easily and not ponder over things that tear you apart. 


She'll instead whine over trivial matters. 


She'll hold you when you are weakest and not hold you at all when you are worse. Not because she cares less. 


It's because she needs to hold her self together. 


A broken hook cannot hold a mantle. 


She breaks and remains broken. 

Until she's ready to be whole again. Sometimes, she tries to make things alright. 

She tries to proves that she's done it before, but most of the times she's just gotten accustomed. 


Most of the times, she remains who she is. And you should let her be. 

She may be a mystery, but she's real. Don't make her a figment of your imagination. She's not an illusion. She's a real person. 

But let go of your ideas about her. Those are illusions- Dangerous ones!!!

Wednesday, August 16, 2017

Dalliance


Midnight, sharp, my cell beeped. I got a message from an unknown number that wished me the most beautiful birthday.

“No matter what they wish for, no matter how far they go, people can never be anything but themselves."
be you! always. Happy birthday!

No, it wasn't my birthday.
Yes, I wished it was.

Because this person on the other end was quoting a Murakami. And he/she had effortlessly used one of his quotes as a birthday wish. Who could possibly be as crazy as I am about an Author of a foreign origin, who writes about dysfunctional humans and cats!

"Sorry. Looks you have the wrong number", I replied.

After waiting for almost an eternity, the cell beeped again.

"Shruti?"

My fingers went over the qwerty in million different patterns.

I managed to type, "No! Wrong number."

An instant response almost ended the conversation.

"Murakami, huh?", I pinged back again, curiosity piling up.

"Seriously?!!", came the response.

"Sorta!", I replied.

"Very Impressive"

"This was perhaps Shruti's earlier number", I pinged resorting to small talk.

"Chance encounters are what keep us going!", the ping came back.

This person was referring to Kafka. That was my favorite read. I wondered if soulmates ever existed.

"No small talks please", the request instantly came in. Rude, I thought!

Our talks didn't limit to Murakami alone. It spanned over my favorite authors and favorite discussions. I had no clue who the person on the other end was. Was it a man, woman, girl, boy, an aged gentleman, a well read retired principal from a school, a librarian, a college student or a doctor? I had no idea at all. I started looking forward to late night chats, discussing books after books, the interpretations, philosophies, how characters came to life in our mundane lives, and how silly quotes from books made utter sense in real world. We lived in parallel universes, entwined in a love affair - unknown, yet very true.

I liked how the fling lasted more than a week. For a month. Almost a year. 

"I saved your name as Reiko", I pinged one fine day.

"How about Midori? or Sumire?", came the reply.

I had not imagined a girl to be on the other end discussing books with me all these days. I did not know, suddenly how I felt about it.

"Good choice", I responded, not sounding too surprised about the discovery.

I saved her number with the name as "Sumire", while she called me Miu.

Like an ethereal escape, both of us deluded into our own lives, realizing, how Sputnik Sweetheart must only be a fiction.

Friday, August 04, 2017

Epiphany


The wind caressed the tamarind tree, and the remnants of raindrops fell on Mangal. Startled, he looked up, and adjusted his seat on the rock he was sitting on. His cane stick fell in a water puddle. Mangal picked it up and tapped it on the concrete a few times.


Thakk.. thakk…thakk…

This place helped him cool off his anger, every time he had a fight with Kanta. He would barge out of the house at these impulses. These were regular scenes, and Kanta would eagerly wait for Mangal to come back home. He thought of one such fight he had years ago.

 ***
"Mangali"

"Aye Mangali"

"How long before you switch off that television and finish your food?"

 Kanta was eternally tired of running after Mangal for every little thing.

 "Bastards, all of them!", Mangal yelled.

"Why can't they catch a ball falling at an arm's distance? These cricketers are way too complacent for the money they are paid"

 Kanta sighed, looking at Mangal shift tensely on the cane chair, reacting to the Match India had just lost.

 "Such an abysmal performance. Leeches!", he frowned.

 "Eat your food, so that I can wrap up before the maid comes", Kanta called out one more time.

 Mangal took to his cane and hit angrily on the floor. "Coming!! Didn't I say!"

 At 80, his voice quivered. His anger, not so much.

 Kanta stayed mum, knowing this will take a while to settle down.

Babbling incoherently, Mangal inhaled heavily and began to sit for his meal.

“Finish this fast, the maid will come anytime”, Kanta reiterated, exasperatingly.

 He slid the plate away from the table, “Let her come”, he said and furiously walked away, his cane tapping the floor.

 Thakk.. thakkk.. thakk…thakk..
Copyright : obscureoptimist

***

Sitting at his favorite place, Mangal, looked up, at the intricate designs of the tree, and wondered, how beautifully the sunshine seeped through the gaps and distributed its chunk into beautiful rays. Today was not one of those days, though. Monsoons had rendered the city devoid of sunshine for over a month. Mangal detested overdone things. Seasons, too, sometimes, when they stayed superfluously.

 Brooding over what’s what and why was not his nature. Mangal would sit under the tree and observe things around him. He would add the numbers on the number plates of the vehicles parked or going past him. He would sniff tobacco every now and then, and, do nothing.

 It was hard to know what went on in his mind. He kept looking up, at the tree, wondering why he did not observe it this closely before. It was like an unfathomable maze. He picked up one branch and started tracing it from the trunk to its end. But he lost it every time. He failed to figure out which branch went where.

 After minutes of staring at the tree, he groggily stretched his neck and looked down. He felt the pull in shoulders and spine. He drew his attention to the trunk of the tree, and saw how beautifully it held all the origins of the branches.

He imagined Kanta.

He realized, he had not acknowledged how dependent he was on her.

 “Mangali Uncle…Can I drop you home? Aunty must me waiting.”, said a kind passerby, interrupting Mangal’s business.

He smiled.

It had just been 1 day, and he had to start informing everyone about her death. Perhaps there were many who did not know.

 “Sure. Thank you”, Mangal said.

 He turned back and took an earnest look at the tree one more time. He tapped it as if it was a reassurance that he was giving to someone who sought it from him.

 “Let’s go”, he said and started walking towards the car.

 “How long does it take for a tree to grow, if I plant it now”, Mangal asked the young man who had offered him a lift…

***

...end....


Wednesday, May 24, 2017

Solidarity on Sale

It did put me in a zone, from where I could only escape with a blog post. 

Well, she happened to ask me, why do people only express solidarity on Facebook, when something happens outside of India and not when some thing is reported in India. For instance, not undermining the ruthlessness, the terror attacks that took place in Manchester, two days ago, had so many people condemning the attacks.

Any terror attack or any crime, leading to loss of human life, unity, or integrity, only portrays an abysmal state of human beings. It is really really sad!!

My post, or the brooding I underwent, since the topic came up, is not about how the world is succumbing to negative forces, but what makes people so hollow from within? If you have read my posts, my constant whining has been about pertinent hypocrisy.

Why did the Facebook and audience, not express their concern over Rohtak Gang Rape, or the rape of a 2.5 year old kid that left an indelible scar on her body, mind and spirit? Why is there immense consolation for something that happens outside, and so little for crimes and attack that happen here.

Humans are same everywhere. Don't get me wrong. I am not trying to divide people on the basis of how they feel for their "foreign" brethren. I am only asking, why isn't there awareness about crimes that happen around us?

Is it the "yaha chalta hai", "yaha aisa hi hota hai", "India hai, what do you expect?!", attitude that holds us from expressing solidarity? Or is it the acceptance that we have developed over the time, about what's ok and what's not! 

We do not spread any awareness, or we do not express as much, and that's fine. Perhaps, that is not our prerogative as citizens of the nation. But sympathizing with what happens out of the nation, and putting it on social media, will only prove how well you have been influenced by the media. It proves nothing about your reading skills or your knowledge about the current affairs.

This is again not about who reads what and expresses what. This is about, being true to oneself. If you sympathize so strongly with a terror attack outside, I want you to express your sympathies to someone who's suffered on a similar scale in your own country. Or else, just don't express it!

That's the difference between sympathy and empathy. If you were empathizing enough, you would KNOW so much to not express it and feel the pain of the things that are happening around you, first!
Try and change it, because it is affecting you too. And then watch society change, person by person, community by community, city by city and state by state. 

That's when you can associate yourself with the tag of  "Global Citizen" and empathize at all levels.

Stop acknowledging. A crime on humanity is a crime on you. Have emotions, not recognition! 

Let me know, what you can really do, being where you are! Think about it!

Tuesday, October 25, 2016

How Dog's pee saved me a meal!

Pic Courtesy : thinkstock

Some things are so funny! Sadly funny. Sadly-punch-you-in-the-face-funny! You really can't do anything about it!

So, I am a Vegetarian who eats eggs, whatever you may want to call that! So when I go out for a dinner party with few other people who like to eat meat, red or plain, I usually think that I'll get to have what I desire in the vegetarian cuisine, because they  get to pick what they eat, without my interference!

So this is what happened, once upon a time!

After debating over potential restaurants which serve good Veg and Non-Veg food, I went to this swanky place with a few other people (those who shall not be named!). It had a low lit ambiance, quite to my liking and it smelled lovely in there. I was so attracted by a steaming plate of vegetables that the waiter passed by me with, to another table, that I mentally decided what I would be ordering!

Being the only vegetarian, I boldly called for my order, trying to customize it as per my liking. I called for  Sauted vegetables tossed with garlic in soy sauce and honey. I love the taste, don't judge me! While I was indulging in what I'd call a gluttony-initiation, a strong opposition came in!

"Vegetables?? Are you mad! Order, Paneer no!", one of them said.

"I don't like Paneer so much", I replied.

"Don't worry, main kha lunga! Aur mere liye ek Chicken Lollipop kar dena bhaiyya", he added.

"Ok, then one paneer tikka with Sauted vegetables", I said.

"Arre? Tu akeli hai, kitna Veg order karegi? Itna hoga kya khana?", he asked.

"Tu Paneer khayega, toh main kya khaungi?", I asked.

"Pura thodi na khaunga re pagli!", he replied.

I thought, perhaps it is a good idea to order just one vegetarian dish, instead of ordering two. I always make sure that I never waste food. So I ordered the Paneer tikka in yellow coating with green chutney! I kinda convinced myself, that paneer ain't that bad, after all! I was also hoping I'd get 80% of the share, because - Hanger(Hunger+Anger) makes you do silly things and how much paneer would a non-vegetarian eat?

The order started coming in slowly. As usual, the Vegetarian Starter came in first. Everyone on the table, 8 of them, asked the waiter to serve it to them. There are just 8 pieces of Paneer in Paneer Tikka. And the guy who loved Paneer got one extra. For an appetite of an elephant, I was starving and I got served with just one piece of the starter! And all the self proclaimed non-vegetarians were hogging on the only little food that had come my way!

"Hey guys, I'll order one more, you'll eat?", I asked trying to curb my anger.

"Nai nai. We are Non Veg. Chicken aayega na. You order, you order!", they said.

"Toh bhaiyya, ek Mushroom ka starter kar do koi bhi. Bohot Bhook lagi hai!", I did not even look at the menu.

"Mushroom? You are a vegetarian no? Why eat Mushroom?", one of them said.

"See, I am a different kind of a vegetarian! I love Mushrooms and Eggs and I don't want to classify this food or me as anything, at the moment. So call  me anything you want!" I said, frustrated.

"So call yourself a non vegetarian then, why have fancy name tags for yourself!", one argued.

A good debate is possible only when one is fed full. I wasn't, so i ignored with a cursory smile.

The chicken starters started to come in and they all looked jubilant. I ignored their faces as I traced the waiter who took my order. I hoped for him to come back soon with the order. I was sure, I could eat more, considering I'd get just one more piece of Mushroom.

"So, main course?", I asked.

"Nai, we have ordered enough starters. Hum log nai khaenge", they all said. 

7 vs 1! I couldn't have argued. They don't serve small portions for a single vegetarian eater! What a shame!

I feel sometimes it's better to go out for dinner with people who know you best (read - who let you eat your food and who eat theirs!), and not with people who call them selves "Pure Non-vegetarians" and eat Vegetarian! It was not a very good feeling. After waiting for an eternity, my order finally came in! The waiter asked the others if they wanted Mushrooms, and they all nodded!

I couldn't take it anymore.

"You know Mushrooms are made from Dog pee", I declared, before the waiter could move the serving spoon!

"What? Are you serious?", they all asked in unison.

"No yaa, those are different mushrooms!", one said.

"Ewks, I can't eat it anymore, it's so disgusting that you said it out loud", the other said.

Good I thought. The others got busy on google, trying to find out the history of mushrooms. The waiter came my way and kept the entire plate in front of me. I ate to my hearts content, ignoring the discussions they were having. 

Finally one of them said, "You are worst than us. We are non-vegetarians. You are a dog-pee-eterian".

I smiled a happy smile - the one which comes when your stomach is full. I nodded gulping down a satisfying glass of water.

"Yes, I love dogs!! Their pee too!!", I said.

And there was no hypocrisy in that! Finally a dog-fact saved this vegetarian a meal!

Also, No! The edible mushrooms have nothing to do with dog pee. This is jan hit me jaari! ;)

Wednesday, October 19, 2016

Fate and Love!

I sat in the corner of my room, in the dark, so that fate won't find and hit me hard. Karma, they say! What did i ever do to deserve this, i thought. 
But that wasn't really the question, i should have been asking. All efforts futile, all escapes meaningless! How can one hit a dead end and keep moving? 
I hid from everything, everyone.. I hid from people who thought they were helping me. 
I escaped my own existence and flew to distant lands of illusions
Where sinking in dungeons was as dangerous as flying high. 
One day, i was pulled out.. by a tiny ray of light, that kept knocking on one of the doors in my mind.. It said,  Love is pretty easy to find
You may look down, look above 
You can be troubled by fate
But you'll be saved by love!

Tuesday, October 18, 2016

Re-Genesis!

© yamini
I have not blogged, or written in the longest time, and people have been asking me why so? I never took writing seriously, but this is an exercise to the mind, if not anything else. A very healthy outlet, which eases me out of a lot of tension.

So, to all those who come here and return back, without seeing any updates, here I am, back again, with another sprint! I want to say, that I will be regular henceforth, but writer's block is like pee; if you drink too much, you have to go.
I do not promise to be here forever, I do want to start writing regularly again. And the agenda, like always is as follows:

Monday Musings - for the love of poetry, and ramblings in rhythm.

Tangy Tuesdays - Gossips, Bashing, Opinions and All sorts of masala that, I otherwise do not write on social media.

Wordless Wednesdays - for the love of photography, when pictures speak more than words

Thoughtful Thursdays - When delving on important issues of life, often leads to sensible/senseless rantings.

Fictional Fridays - attempt to revive to the old art of story telling, through short or serial fictions

Silent Saturdays - Who blogs on a weekend? huh?

Surreal Sundays - because sometimes, you write so much, that you never wanna stop, and Silent Saturdays, bother the bejesus out of you! So you write, on a Sunday too!

Also, bringing back the tradition of Aisa Bhi hota hai, guests and impromptu posts, I hope to keep this space alive, until it slowly slips into another slumber!

Ready? Let's begin then! ;)

Re-Genesis!

© yamini
I have not blogged, or written in the longest time, and people have been asking me why so? I never took writing seriously, but this is an exercise to the mind, if not anything else. A very healthy outlet, which eases me out of a lot of tension.

So, to all those who come here and return back, without seeing any updates, here I am, back again, with another sprint! I want to say, that I will be regular henceforth, but writer's block is like pee; if you drink too much, you have to go.
I do not promise to be here forever, I do want to start writing regularly again. And the agenda, like always is as follows:

Monday Musings - for the love of poetry, and ramblings in rhythm.

Tangy Tuesdays - Gossips, Bashing, Opinions and All sorts of masala that, I otherwise do not write on social media.

Wordless Wednesdays - for the love of photography, when pictures speak more than words

Thoughtful Thursdays - When delving on important issues of life, often leads to sensible/senseless rantings.

Fictional Fridays - attempt to revive the old art of story telling, through short or serial fictions

Silent Saturdays - Who blogs on a weekend? huh?

Surreal Sundays - because sometimes, you write so much, that you never wanna stop, and Silent Saturdays, bother the bejesus out of you! So you write, on a Sunday too!

Also, bringing back the tradition of Aisa Bhi hota hai, guests and impromptu posts, I hope to keep this space alive, until it slowly slips into another slumber!

Ready? Let's begin then! ;)

Wednesday, April 27, 2016

La Douleur Exquise



I stare at the sky
as gravity keeps me grounded
and wonder if the moon appears
as bright to you
as it appears to me?
I catch the wind
in my fists
and glue it with kisses
and send them towards the sky...

If you ever feel
a puff touch your lips
or wind caress your hair,
I want you to feel my scent and touch
And know..
that even though I have never
been able to express
my love
or ask...
i do feel it..
as strongly as you don't!

And sometimes, I believe
you are like that dream
I keep chasing...
A beautiful illusion..
And this, darling,
is universe's way of letting me know
that the yearning should never stop
no matter how heart wrenching the pain is...
just like you...

***

La Douleur exquise : (French): The heart-wrenching pain of wanting someone you can't have...

Monday, April 04, 2016

C for Cafuné

Picture Courtesy : Diba
Like an indecorous lover,
you racy Wind!!!

You run your fingers through the sky
and brush it's beautiful tresses
into shades of Rose and Sangria..

Sometimes I could gulp it all down
and intoxicate my soul with 
what you paint for me
and dampen my senses...

Or sometimes compose in your glory
Shamelessly!

Why don't you come into my life someday
and flirt with my woes...
Engage in yet another Cafuné
Soothe the sprint of thoughts..
In my head..
And color my tresses into shades of love

No one has painted them happy
in a long long time...

if there were no dreams

  if there were no dreams the permanence would slowly take over and the little escapes into the terrain of subconscious existence would deli...