Lockdown Day 8 - Chaos and Clairvoyance!

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This slumber is a silent time for a lot of chaos to surface. At least for me it is so.

Despite this very appropriate break that we’ve got, to unwind and relax, the body and mind has been giving in to a lot of hidden pains and chaos that was settled deep within but now is causing an imprudent unsettlement. One may think so! The feeling is inexplicable.

This restlessness is also a part of the journey and it is very important to get out of this phase with more clarity if not anything else.

Restlessness and obscurity surfaces when we have been trying to contemplate or introspect. I think, whether we try or not, we are eventually doing it during this time.

There are dreams, vivid or blurred, doesn’t matter, but they are all trying to tell us something.

I had revelations at many levels - during meditation sessions, introspective sessions while reading randomly on internet or books. The clarity isn’t there yet, because these are life altering topics. I have been delving upon them, nonetheless. On the other side of it all I am very sure that there will be a clear direction at least.

Whenever I am down and under and there is no lucidity, I try to pick up the intuitions, and when they haven’t been really strong enough, I do seek guidance. The guidance comes in very many forms if you are open!

Some read through the angel numbers, or talk to clairvoyants or read messages in many different ways.

Social media has made me appreciate and understand that there are so many people all over the world who believe in vibrations, signs and messages too. There is a reason why psychics and clairvoyants exist and they are not really given the due credits they deserve. Every one is struggling, everyone needs a breakthrough, but most of us are closed to the vibrations and messages that keep coming up, and we refuse to take the lesson or guidance!

This is one such time – this chaos, this silence, this period of isolation. If we can just stop all that we have been doing all these days, all these years and slightly bring a shift in the way we have been perceiving things, and open up to a possibility to what the universe is trying to tell, believe me we call could lead our lives out of the pandemonium that distracts us every now and then!

Until we get there, let us make use of all the light-workers who do relentless work for the humanity and play along until they all take us through these times of trial and vagueness. 

Lockdown Day 7 - Pen Pal

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You know my old address,

But I have moved now!

Bring me all those letters that you've written to me

Telling me you were coping

And how?

You’d say that the distances would melt into nothingness!

Take me to the old town of Bombay

Infamous for small flirtatious encounters

Like you’d say!

Tell me about the fancy men,

Who’d befriend you, during the day!

Where promises to build careers and life

Were written on rocks

and sands,

Washed away, inattentively,

As if God’s command!

The beguiling beauty of the roads,

You captured all of them in your letters

And how?

You’ve sent all sweet kisses to an old address

But I’ve moved now!

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Ever had a pen pal? There was once an exchange of addresses in our school and we made pen pals! There were no phones, no emails, and it was the 90s. I had a pen pal, and I may have written a few letters to him/her!

The anticipation of receiving the letter from the other end, always used to make me imagine the unimaginable! Without knowing who the other person and from what part of the world, opening up to someone who’s an absolute stranger was indeed scary. As a 12-13-year-old, I did it anyway. I perhaps, found a friend in someone whom I’d never meet or see ever!

Time passed, and the letters stopped! I don’t quite remember what we shared over letters!

But to the pen pal, long lost, if you are still sending letters to a place I don’t belong to anymore! I hope you get the metaphor!

Lockdown Day 6 - Summer Break!

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Some days pass by so quickly, despite being isolated at home. And some days struggle as if there is never going to be an end!

There are some days when I yearn for the childhood / school days to come back. The carefree ones, when April time meant examinations; awaiting summer holidays with all earnestness. It meant making merry plans to visit places – grandparents’, or sitting back home and enjoying with friends.

Voila! I have it now! Alas, I can’t travel anywhere! One because, it is restricted and more so because my beloved Grandparents are not around anymore. This keeps bringing me back to reality - the childhood days are never coming back!

That’s why they say, be very careful about what you wish for, you never know it may come true.

Right now, I am indeed enjoying my summer holidays. Exams were, in a way, a few deliverables that I slogged to send, once I was done with that, I indeed retreated to some good shows on Netflix and some books that were laying for far too long on the shelves.

April is one of my favorite months for obvious reason – my birth month! The power of Aries, and planetary influence of Mars perhaps brings the best out in me. It may not be evident, but I feel the happiest during this time, and co-incidentally it’s the onset of summer (holidays)! Hence, it feels merrier.

As I write this, I am trying to remember all the things I did as a kid, during summer holidays! My mother would insist on being creative during these times, and would enrol us in various classes. I remember joining speaking classes, writing classes and discovering my true love for words, poetry and literature during the summer holidays. I also tried hand at artsy stuff like drawing, painting but that never was my calling. My sister did great at it though!

Summer usually is a time that brings us closer to our true self, I feel. We have had the most leisure during this time and have played our favorite sports, picked up our favorite hobbies, and developed skills that defined us, more than the school curriculum ever did!

It’s summer (holidays) again!

It’s time to rewind and bring back the interests that once enticed us, for which we’d wait one whole year and pursue it with utmost devotion. I cannot say that this time will come over and over again, I pray this situation never occurs again, however, a summer break can always happen for us!

Though forced, this break has really taken me back to the times when I knew and did things that were apart from the routine – where there wasn’t an existential crisis and life had meaning.

Sad, how nature is asking us to do things that were lost in time! It should have been our very own prerogative to do what satisfies our soul!

I am doing just that and intend to keep doing it, until the routine goes!

Be it a summer break, or a winter break; our individual selves need nourishment, and by no means, a vacation with posts on social media shall serve that!

Go back to doing what you loved to do the most in your summer holidays, as a kid!

And we’ll talk about it, in our next break!